I’ve been on this weight loss journey for more than half my life. I’ve always been curvy but after I had my children I just wasn’t able to shift the weight. I know all the rules of losing weight eat less, exercise more, make informed choices and over the years I’ve lost loads of weight and then put it all back on again.
I don’t like exercise and although I like to swim once I’m in the water it does take a conscious effort for me to get ready to go to the pool. On holiday I swim for at least half an hour a day but at home in the warmth of my living room, getting out there when its pouring with rain or snowing is not easy. I do pilates every now and then and when I’m in a class I love it, but again don’t feel motivated enough to get up and go out to a class. Its within me to do all these things and I just sit on my rear and play around on the laptop or watch tv.
Some days I have to look after my 2yr old granddaughter and I love her to bits but its very tiring and at the age of 60 I don’t have the energy I had when I had her mother all those years ago! I am someome who generally is very laid back and can deal with anything but a few years ago I was bullied at work by my boss (all sorted now – I’ve retired!!!) and now find it harder to deal with certain things that come my way. My son’s marriage has broken down and his wife’s left him and he’s now the main carer for their son. He’s trying to change his life around and do a childcare course so he can help give his son a good role model, which will mean he may need me to help look after him sometimes. I won’t go into the details of what happened, I tend to get tunnel vision and rant for England about it all. Suffice to say, I’m proud of my son but the worry of it all (he’s coping brilliantly by the way) has made me question so much and I’m having problems resisting the munchies! I know I can’t use that as an excuse but it does affect my moods and I’m trying not to make excuses at all.
Anyway, I belong to a weight loss group on line (www.weightlossresources.co.uk) and with their help I’m trying to keep on track. I log all food and exercise and go on the forums on a regular basis for support and advice and since December I’ve lost 1.5stone which is great.
In December I was diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes. I had been glucose intolerant for many years and my late mum was diabetic and my sister is also diabetic and despite being monitored regularly by my GP, I never thought it would happen to me. Then it did! This made me more focussed on losing my weight and to be honest it was a relief to be diagnosed as it meant I had to deal with it rather than ignore it.
Life is for living and losing the weight will mean I will be in control of my diabetes and that I will look & feel better. Only thing is that as I’ve got so much to lose that I will become wrinkly and have lots of loose skin so I may not get down to the ideal weight for me as it will make me look drawn and haggard and like a wrinkly prune! Need to win the lottery to have a fully body lift!
My journey is a long one but I will succeed and get myself in better shape so I can have a long life and see my grandchildren grow up and live their lives too. I will come on the blog when I have down days and when I have good days, I won’t put my weight down on the blog, I do that on the forum I’m on, but I will shout when I have a good loss and cry when things don’t go quite right.
I hope that by being positive about losing weight I will be able to get to my goal and perhaps inspire others on the way. I’ve rambled again but it does help putting it down!